it's been a while... no, it's been a very long time since my last post. i've been quite busy these past few days to tell the truth. If not so, i just don't seem to see the use and the purpose of making such update. here may be people who want to know my thoughts or get in my mind in thet matter but just like what i've told some people before, my life isn't an open book, or atleast that's what i don't want it to be.
too much to start a after-ten-decades-of-silence post.
college life isn't really what i've expected it to be. with those people who slack off a lot and the ones who seem to become parasites, leeches if i may add, to just not care to study and resort to dishonesty in most times. *i didn't make my point, did i?*
It's been hard because of the position they gave me and the meetings i have to attend to which seemingly don't fit in my schedule though i still find a way to attend to. i've gained people's respect though, a very good thing. and earned praises from... nevermind. not important.
recently, a woman who's taking up BS Psychology had me as her subject in her project, a case study. the process went quite well, with her having to meet me a lot of times and having my very-rich-and-oh-so-smart-that-i-am-proud-of-it blockmate even had to make a big fuss about seeing me with my interviewer. Even telling me that the one who i was with just won bb. Pilipinas and miss earth and what have you. I just had that urge to do something really evil, though i still managed to stop myself. She asked me why i was with her and i told her she was my girlfriend. Just to stop hearing her making-a-mountain-out-of-a-molehill thing. Though i know she didn't buy it.
There were a lot of rude people that i had to bear with. Those who can't stop their mouth and don't even think of how harsh their words would come out.
there have been a lot of people who just crossed me and since i've been having anger management issues, its been hard for me to be calm. there's even this one person who always does sins and eventually says sorry *codename: rich*. I just wanna say that just because you did something doesn't mean it could be fixed by a mere sorry. If then i could just kill someone or slap that person freely and say.. "sorry! *though i meant that, good thing i did it.. i don't even regret it*" Hah. When that person did something that made me be very dense that i didn't hear rich's voice. avoided that person the whole period of class. it even came to the point that rich is saying sorry and won't leave without me going home. hah. and even texted me... i don't want to give out details. but right now, everything's fine.
wait.. i remembered this guy... when i was doing my teacher's aid thing that was needed in our organization, it so happened that it was lunchbreak and the time will still be recorded if i stay in the office. and so, i did. he suddenly went up to for a conversation, it helped to just let the hour pass and since i have nothing to do but wait for my next meeting. the conversation went just as some does. asking the school, how the adjustment is.. then suddenly. i was asked about the classes we took up in hs such as electronics, baking, and sex education. It kinda bothered me though that he asked directly how it was taught. i stopped to stare at him *he's taking up BS Psychology, by the way* for a moment thinking, "what's wrong with you? what do you want me to tell you?" i didn't rally put malice into it but he stopped for a moment and was hesitant when he asked the question, even with a different tone. i just shrugged off and told him, "it's just a crash course so basically,... it was just slightly discussed" translation: don't ask me something if we won't talk about it with an educative tone.
there was also this other issue. while i was doing the seatwork in english... actually, the class has ended so i did it while waiting for the next class. we were on the stairs and i was writing and rushing it since the prof will be waiting for it. when i was done, i said, "yes, finally. done." then stood up, holding the sheet of paper. but i forgot that i had a few papers in my lap so they flew in a soap-opera-ish manner. and there's this guy who went down the stairs so he helped me get the papers. haha. i laughed after the whole scene coz its just like what i see in operas where everything is so set into place. and the scene is one of those i hate seeing where both people pick up the papers, aside from the fact that there were howling voices afterward. haha. i just didn't think such a thing could happen.. to me.
things come in threes...
lastly there's this other person that our adviser in the org wants to set-up with me. not that he's doing it in a very loud manner but i'm not dense. that's that. since i want to try being friendly, i talked to that guy *since were the only people in the testing room, unless i wanted to be creative to talk to the table and make him think i am a psycho > though i am. haha*. asking his course *which is hrm* yadda yadda... but that person didn't even ask anything. it's ok but he also answered my questions in a rude manner. haha. too bad, i became friendly at the wrong place, time and to the wrong person. after the whole activity, our adviser asked the update. *whattttt!?!? the hell...* and asked him if he knows my name. ofcourse not, he didn't even think of asking that simple question. i'm not really making a big issue about it but he became rude in answering my questions *though i just became obliged since our adviser is a go0d man*. that's that. oh wait, he asked something,
"saang scho0l ka galing?" *anong plano nito?*
"upis po"
"ahh... *he was shocked*"
"bakit niyo po natanong?"
"wala naman" *are you going to brag about it? ugh.*
"kayo po?"
"diyan lang"
"saan po?"
"olops" *yung nga ata... o yung simula e...*
"ahh"
so i left the office immediately. and that wasn't the only time i saw him.
there was the time in the office that i was writing my name in the log book then he came, he was looking at the time i was writing so i had to face away to not show my irritated face. i saw from my peripheral view that he was even smiling *and he even had the nerve. *sigh* * i passed him the book with just a glance so as not to return the disrespect he's shown me. then i left.
things come in threes, again...
when our class had to practice in the gym, it so happened that the place in the court where we had to practice was right beside their place in the court. and even in the presentation,they had to present after our group. too much for a coincidence. but hey, i'll just think of it that way.
sembreak... it's kinda odd... i'm getting bored. i've been reading bo0ks to use my time wisely though...
as of now, i am officially a vegetarian. it hasn't been long. i just started last October 10 and i'm still struggling with it. i don't want to give out more updates on the eating thing coz it might turn out bad it i do a foresight.
i've also been reading twilight *just like all the people in the world, yeah, i know*. the story's okay. not too outstanding though but i was really affected by some scenes, haha, kudos to stephenie for that.
this is a piece i've studied... it's easy but it just shows how i've been feeling... just interpret, would you?
this post should've been longer but i don't want to bore the hell out of you and cause an eyesore. haha. thanks for reading. hope i can make an update immediately.
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